Last night, Peej and I had adoration. 1:00 in the morning is never easy, but today was even harder. I couldn't sleep before that and I was feeling SUPER DUPER DUPER cranky. By the time we made it to Mercy, tensions were running very high... And in the awake-ness of the next day, I realize that it was my fault. But we went to sit with JESUS! And it took about... maybe 10 minutes for me to realize that I was definitely being a big stinky butthead. I snuggled up to the receiver of my wrath, and apologized. There were some tears, but the good thing is, he loves me. ALMOST as much as HE does!! What a beautiful life lesson. Even when I'm a stinky butthead, Jesus loves ME. Regardless. He may not be thrilled with me, but He's always waiting for me with His arms outstretched, waiting for me to run back to Him. Which is a good thing, because I'm a stinky butthead A LOT. Much more than I'd like to admit, unfortunately. He thinks I'm beautiful, even when I show up to see him at 1 AM in my LSMSA jammie pants and a baggie sweatshirt. I am the daughter of a King... maybe my behavior and attitude sometimes should reflect that better. I'm going to work on that. My Heavenly Father deserves that respect.
The person who has the slot after PJ's and my holy hour didn't show. So we got to sit with Jesus for two hours instead of just one. And for the first time since we signed up for this ridiculously early weekly tradition, I stayed awake the whole time!! It was a big moment. And the two hours flew by once my heart was truly at peace.
And even more interestingly, once we got back to our apartments, I fell immediately to sleep. His peace really does surpass all understanding.
Let me be when I am weary/Just a little bit more cheery/
Think a little more of others/ And a little less of me.
- Glen Campbell, "Let Me Be a Little Kinder"
Are those brownies done yet?
Until 198.
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